What do I want do?

I know I've always had an interest in working with people and would be a plus if it were international oriented. I've never cared much for politics, but realize I should care more. Current events is also something I need to be more update with. Then there's also developing my computer skill. Man, what else is there for me to learn and do ---> so much more is the answer...

Last year at this time I just started with this Green Company and found another full time gig because I just wasn't getting enough hours. I knew I wanted a marketing job and wanting to work with people because of my experience at B. where my favorite part of the day was calling the airlines and asking them where my freight was. I also realized that I like working in a young environment where people aren't going to pin me down each time I'm late to work and watch over my every step.

I realized over my short work experience history that I'm customer-oriented always wanted to give the customers what they want and I'm a bad liar. It's hard for me to do something I don't enjoy doing and be around people who don't have the same basic values as me of respect and integrity and just down right having fun.

Around my co-workers KD and CM I'm seen as hard-worker, but when I was at this coffee company, I felt like I just didn't belong or I was too boring. All they cared about was sports and who was playing who and the latest tv show to watch. Maybe a lot of people do in the real world and it's good to be on top of the latest current trends. I guess this is another thing I can work on.

I have to continue finding my interests and stop thinking and planning and start acting. At the moment, I'm proud of myself for acting. At least getting my thoughts into words and for thinking about what it is I want and getting dates down.

During this past month, I really tried to start hoping to produce results. I have checked off a lot on my do-to-list. Yay! There is still a lot to do though, this is only the beginning. With a lot more activities on my plate, I have to manage my time better. I will also need to analyze what is worth my time.

Quality over quantity is the main challenge for next month. With a lot on the plate, I really want to spend the time I have with my loved ones well. The make sure I spend my time wisely and appreciate all those who are important to me. Without them, all my dreams and aspirations just wouldn't be the same. Gotta love my cheerleaders!

Try try again.....

Having a career I'm passionate about has been a long time aspiration. At the age of 25 though, I wonder what are skills I have to offer to society? Would they value my skills or would I just be another fish in the sea or worse...not qualified.

At the age of 25, I have decided, I hate sitting in front of a desk and entering data all day long. I also don't like working in an environment where people micromanage your every step and feel superior to you because they hold a fancier title.

I value a work environment where there is mutual respect for each other. Where people there are truly passionate about the product and the service that is offered. I value the support and encouragement from my co-workers to share their knowledge and not be afraid to tell me their thoughts. Having a clear understanding of what management wants is also important. Having an over all goal and being able to obtain it is ideal.

Today, I met with a gal who is just a few years older than me who seemed to have everything all put together. I admired her, and aspire to be a little more put together. She said she realizes she needs to stop having everything perfect and just be okay with okay.

From our conversation, I realized I love making connections and being in a creative atmosphere. Working with people is ideal. I also figured out that I get emotional involved into projects and want everything to be just right before I can feel proud of myself.

Right now, I have a lot on my plate and it's going to take some discipline to get it all done and in order. Otherwise, I will be running around with my head chopped off and that is not want I want to be doing.

I must not be discouraged and just go for it. No one else is going to make things happen for me until I do something about it. So do the dew and live! Sigh*

Starting.....

Subconsciously, starting is hard until you finally take that first leap and one realizes it's all in the head.

I plan and plan and sit at the side lines scared to take the first swing. What if I miss? What if I strike out or let someone down? Maybe I don't want to be doing this? All these questions linger in my mind as I struggle to make the first move and just take action.

The mere act of acting produces results. It takes me one step closer to my goal. So why not start?

A big fear of mine about starting is simply a lack of direction and fear of the unknown. I don't really know where I'm suppose to be headed or what to do with my life so I feel incompetent.

Starting is hard and I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. About two weeks ago, my dear friend and I challenged each other to "start and produce results." From our conversation, I'm confident we're both excited about the challenge because it's something we are both struggling with.

It's been two weeks since we've challenged each other. Every time I get discouraged to start, I think about our conversation and remind myself, “there's nothing to lose if I try, but I risk losing by not evening doing anything.”

Needless to say, the challenge has been positive and I'm glad I have the support and encouragement of those around me.